I never have anything to do.
All I do is sit around at home all day.
I can't get a job....so far.
I keep getting turned down.
I have no real friends anymore....none.
The only ones I do have are to far away or super busy all the time.
I hate this.
Basically the only person I have to talk to is my mom.
So, she knows way more than she would normally.
I pretty much tell her everything.
I feel like I'm struggling to stay afloat in a sea of depression.
I can see myself slipping back into it.
It's pretty hard to stay happy when there's nothing to be happy about.
I don't even want to deal with Christmas this year.
I wish we could just skip over it.
There's no point, the only time christmas is enjoyable is when you're a kid.
Those days are long gone.
I never thought I would want to/ be ready to leave Madison.
Now, I know I am and I plan on doing it.
I'm stuck here for almost 2 years though, but the second I can, I'm gone.
I really want to move to Europe (London or Paris).
Mostly I can't imagine moving anywhere in the US, plus I've been in love with Europe since I was 10.
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